Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Unfolding Disappointment

I just received word that I was not selected for a part-time online writing teacher position for which I applied over a month ago.  That position was the main reason why I started this blog.  I'm still waiting for word on the job that required me to have 25 followers.

I am disappointed.  I thought I knew what direction my life was supposed to take.  I have been doing transcription for 13 years, and I am tired of it.  Don't get my wrong.  I am grateful for a job, and I know that falling into transcription all those years ago was a gift from God; but my heart just isn't in it anymore.  I feel like it is time for something new.  I love to write, but maybe I'm just not that good at it.  I certainly don't have enough time to get better at it while having to work 39 hours a week on top of everything else.  Maybe it's just that I wasn't supposed to be a teacher.

Maybe I'm just supposed to be happy with the status quo?  How do we better ourselves or find things we're good at, though, if we never take a chance on something new?  I took a chance.  I feel like I stumbled and now have to bandage my wounds.  I'll pick myself up and move on once I build up some more confidence.  I guess there are plenty of examples of people in this world who failed many, many times but finally succeeded. I am certainly not the first person to face disappointment, so I guess I'll just keep praying about the direction God wants my life to go in.  For every door that is closed, God opens a window.  I'll let you know what happens, if anything.

There is always the Pillsbury Bake-Off million dollar prize!!  LOL

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