I just received word that I was not selected for a part-time online writing teacher position for which I applied over a month ago. That position was the main reason why I started this blog. I'm still waiting for word on the job that required me to have 25 followers.
I am disappointed. I thought I knew what direction my life was supposed to take. I have been doing transcription for 13 years, and I am tired of it. Don't get my wrong. I am grateful for a job, and I know that falling into transcription all those years ago was a gift from God; but my heart just isn't in it anymore. I feel like it is time for something new. I love to write, but maybe I'm just not that good at it. I certainly don't have enough time to get better at it while having to work 39 hours a week on top of everything else. Maybe it's just that I wasn't supposed to be a teacher.
Maybe I'm just supposed to be happy with the status quo? How do we better ourselves or find things we're good at, though, if we never take a chance on something new? I took a chance. I feel like I stumbled and now have to bandage my wounds. I'll pick myself up and move on once I build up some more confidence. I guess there are plenty of examples of people in this world who failed many, many times but finally succeeded. I am certainly not the first person to face disappointment, so I guess I'll just keep praying about the direction God wants my life to go in. For every door that is closed, God opens a window. I'll let you know what happens, if anything.
There is always the Pillsbury Bake-Off million dollar prize!! LOL