Saturday, June 4, 2011

Bored with the Status Quo

Well, I handed in my kids' portfolios this past week...another school year completely over.  Now it's on to filing affidavit and objectives for next year, but I don't want to sit down and write them.  There has been little to no work this week with my job to the point that when there is work to do I have no motivation to do it.  I have a lot of projects (like a massive amount of painting) to do around the house to try to get it ready for selling next year, but I either don't have the money to buy what I need to do them or, again, lack the motivation.

I get frustrated with myself when I eat too many calories in a day.  I know I need to exercise more, but I just don't really enjoy exercising inside.  I'd rather hike somewhere.  When we went camping last weekend and took a long hike, that was great!!  I loved that, but we don't live near a really good hiking place.  When I think about doing anything, I think to myself, "It's just easier to stay home and do nothing."  What is that?  I wish I knew what my problem was.

I just said to John the other day that I feel discontent.  The Bible tells us to be content, so I feel like I'm wrong.  But then I've got to wonder, if I'm discontent with the status quo, could it be God's way of telling me to get off my butt and change something.  I like change, so why is it so hard?  The status quo is easier I guess.  There is no unknown in the status quo.

I find that I am irritated with myself when I think of the changes other people are making.  I drive past a bakery that just opened a few months ago in Canonsburg.  I think to myself, "I could have done that."  I hear of friends who are writing books or selling homeschool curriculum that they wrote, and I think, "I could have done that."  I get involved in the excitement going on in other people's lives and find myself getting discouraged that I am doing nothing in my own life.

Am I lazy?  Is it just that the school year ended and my brain has gone into hibernation?  Am I afraid of the unknown, or I am afraid of failing?  Who knows?  It is probably a bit of all of those.  I am really hoping that my discontent will soon spur me on to something exciting, something that I feel I should have been doing all along and then, hopefully, I can get out of the rut of the status quo.

1 comment:

  1. Tammy,

    Boy, do I relate to what you wrote. No, I'm not involved in home school work, or doing transcriptions. But, the principles you outlined ring loudly.

    You mention the Bible says to be content. Well, maybe not quite. Here are some verses that speak to the issue,

    If they obey and serve him, they will spend the rest of their days in prosperity and their years in contentment. Job 36:11

    The fear of the LORD leads to life; then one rests content, untouched by trouble. Prov 19:23

    I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. Phil 4:11-12

    But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that. 1 Tim 6:8

    Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” Heb 13:5

    There are some good reminders in these verses for us. The "to be content" (Your phrase) seems to include more than just "be." Paul is pretty clear about the learning part of the matter. Other passages give us reason to be content, for the people who have their identity wrapped in Christ. As the last decade has flown by, I believe I'm come to understand better what is important, what isn't important. Fussing over unimportant matters leads to discontent. Leaving those things alone, making things simpler, will eliminate needless frustration and being a malcontent.